Hold Your Own, Know Your Name, Go Your Own Way

I just embrace whatever comes.

And when I don't embrace whatever it is, I retreat.

I think I'm done with the phase of my life that has been happening lately. But I don't have anywhere else to go.

That just means more digging into my options.

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And all I can think about right now is the coming of the baby. I don't really want to make time for anything else.

Our newest little downstairs neighbor is a 2 year old Dream Girl who I've been charmed by since she and her parents moved in. During sacrament meeting today, Caleb mentioned that she has curly, unruly hair and a round face like I did when I was young. I can see the resemblance, and it got me to thinking -

Caleb and I have been calling our little one "him" and "he." Because we are so focused on one boy name, we're just assuming our baby is a little guy. Caleb and I are not from largely-male households - quite the opposite, actually. But for some reason, we keep pressing on in the baby boy ideas. But now, with the pseudo-Baby Holly sighting, what if it's a girl? What will she look like? I keep hoping that my kids end up with my reddish hair and Caleb's calves. And I guess those two things are pretty accessible to boys and girls alike. So, I'm going to try to be conscious of the gender mystery currently unfolding in my belly right now, instead of jumping to silly conclusions.

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June really feels like summer. So, I'm excited to really get started, get going.